it’s the good kind of pain
it’s the pain you feel when you wake up at 3am
thinking about their voice and their twinkling laughter
it’s the pain you feel when you’re lying in bed
wanting them to play with your hair, your arms and legs aching to wrap around them
it’s the pain you feel in your head because you know you shouldn’t love them
but it’s the good kind of pain that you don’t want to let go
they’re worth hurting over
Love isn’t all butterflies and magic. It compromises, it’s arguments, full of ugly words and whispers. Love isn’t this huge beam of light that shines down on a couple for eternity. It is complicated and messy and takes a huge amount of work.
Love isn’t going to erase your insecurities. Love isn’t going to take away your depression or anxiety. Love isn’t going to erase your sadness or your problems with work and money and other relationships. We would like to believe it has the power to do this. We would love to believe it. But it’s not the real and honest truth.
Yes, love is something. But love is not everything.
If you start to see darkness overshadowing the light in your relationship, try not to panic. Don’t run right away. Don’t throw in the cards and give up. Ride the wave. Argue, scream and fight through it. Swim in it, not matter how strong the current gets. Only then is it going to be worth saving. Because you have to go through the bad stuff, to get to the good parts.
Love isn’t linear. It’s not something that will always grow upwards.
You have got to get to the difficult conversations. The one that makes you cry and hurt. The ones that make your partner hurt. You’ve got to see them for who they truly are, flaws and all. And they have to know the dark parts of you. The ones you never wanted them to see. You have got to have those heartbreaking arguments and go through hell and back.
Only then, will you be able to see if it is the kind of love that is true>
Only then, will you be able to see if it is the kind of love that you want to keep?
Only then, will you be able to see if this is the kind of love that you don’t want to ever give up on.
Love is a battlefield. It’s not supposed to always be heavenly. You’ve got to work for it. You;ve got to fight like hell for it.
Only then, will you know that yes, love is worth it? It’s worth all the hardships and the sacrifices. Love isn’t magic, but when you get it right and when you work hard enough on it. It’s pretty close to it.
i think the saddest and broken people try their best to make people happy because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless and depressed.
Let me tell you this, if some days you wake up feeling empty and you don’t know why, that’s okay. I don’t know how exactly to fix that because it happens to me too, maybe it happens to everybody.
But can you please ride it out? Because I promise you, I PROMISE you, it will not hang around forever. Nothing does. And you will go to bed one night soon and rise with the sun and suddenly you’ll remember all the millions of little things that make you happy, all the millions of things you’re dying to do and you’ll be so fucking glad you’re here, you’ll be so fucking grateful for this life.
I promise you. I know it’s hard sometimes but it’s worth it.
I don’t know exactly where you are right now. Maybe in a bedroom, staring at your reflection in a cloudy mirror. Maybe on a bus, watching cars drift past a darkened window. Maybe in the arms of someone who makes you happy.
I don’t know where your body rests, how you’re feeling, or what you need.
All I hope is that tonight brings you healing.
I hope the day softens as it comes to a close. I hope the sunset makes you feel calm and warm. I hope that no matter what has hurt you in the last hours, last days, last weeks you take a deep breath and exhale it out into the night sky.
I hope you know that someone loves you, that someone believes in your strength.
I know that this life is hard sometimes. I know there are moments when you don’t know what you want or when you give your all come up short or when you can’t find the strength to move forward and you feel as if you’ll be stuck in one place forever. You won’t.
I truly hope you find healing.
I hope you find your healing in a lover’s touch or a hug from a loved one. I hope you find healing in a stranger’s smile or a cup of coffee with just the right amount of cream and sugar. I hope you find healing in an unexpected laugh or a tiny miracle.
I hope you find healing where you least expect, and I hope it makes you feel whole again.
If you were to leave, don’t try to be gentle about it. Don’t pity me. Don’t treat me like a charity case. Don’t look so tortured like you are the one hurting. Don’t act as though you are doing me a favor.
There’s nothing good about this.
If you were to leave. Don’t try to be my friend. Don’t try to downplay our ending. Don’t try to make light of my pain. Don’t try to taint my impression of you. Don’t try to ruin everything we had.
How can I befriend when every beat of my heart yearn for you?
If you were to leave, don’t ever come back. Because when it comes to you, I don’t know how to give up. I cannot and will not give up. Especially if I think there is a glimmer of hope for us. A glimpse of us together. A shot in the darkness that it could be good this time, right this time.
So, if you were to leave, do it as honest as you can. Don’t sugarcoat your words. Don’t bother trying to ease me into a life without you. Don’t tell me you’re helping me to get used to a life devoid of you. Don’t apologize how you wish things were different when all you want is to be freed from me.
And don’t think I cannot do without you.
Because it may time, but I will rise again. I will continue to flourish. Like the wild spirit I am, I will love again. I will.