if you fucked up today, that’s okay. every day is a battle. if you feel like you can’t get out of bed and all you can do is breathe, that’s okay. you breathe and take the time you need, however much time that is. there is nothing wrong with you. you are still smart. you are still good and people still love you.
“You know who’s gonna give you everything? Yourself.”
“I am figuring out which parts of my personality are mine and which ones I created to please you.”
“It’s better to have nobody than someone who is half there, or who don’t want to be there.”
Many psychoanalysts think that lovesickness is a form of regression, that in longing for intense closeness, we are like infants craving our mother’s embrace. This is why we are most at risk when we are struggling with loss or despair, or when we are lonely and isolated – it is not uncommon to fall in love during the first term of university, for example. But are these feelings really love?
‘I sometimes say – but not entirely seriously – that infatuation is the exciting bit at the beginning; real love is the boring bit that comes later,’ the poet Wendy Cope once told me. ‘People who are lovesick put off testing their fantasies against reality.’ But given the anguish that lovesickness can cause – the loss of mental freedom, the dissatisfaction with one’s self, and the awful ache – why do some of us put off facing reality for so long?
Often it’s because facing reality means accepting loneliness. And while loneliness can be useful – motivating us to meet someone new, for example – a fear of loneliness can work like a trap, ensnaring us in heartsick feelings for a very long time. At it worst, lovesickness becomes a habit of mind, a way of thinking about the world that is not altogether dissimilar to paranoia.
– The Examined Life / Stephen Grosz
at one time or another, we all try to silence painful emotions
but when we succeed in feeling nothing we lose the only means we have of knowing what hurts us, and why.
- The Examined Life / Stephen Grosz
sometimes you just have to move on without certain people.
if they are meant to be in your life, they will find a way to catch up.