Notes For Myself ;, Real me; Real story :)

“maybe we will meet again when we are better for each other”

No, that line is such a fckin bullshiet.
I loved you with every inch of my fcked up heart and you couldnt love me back.
I was in recovery.
I still am and I will be for the rest of my life
So please, if it is 3 years from now and you see me in the street.
Dont come up to me in the hope that you could rekindle the fire you started in my bones.
You left me when i needed you
When i was crying for you on the bathroom floor at 4am

And no matter how much time passes
You will never be enough for me
You will never aid my recovery
You will only hinder it
And so Im sorry
I have to let you go
Please know this isnt temporary
This is real
I gave you what I have left
I know it wasnt much
But you spat it back at me anyway

So please dont have the audacity to think that time will erase that
We will never be enough for each other, we will never be better for each other
You were a lesson
But i confused you for a souldmate.


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